I...also known as MADMalice have an horrible period in my life!
Yeah...good old optimistic MADMalice is in trouble
I thought that pain after my father's death will go away one whole year after everything happened but it didnt.
I can hardly describe my feelings right now...I'm sad and angry at the same time!It's not that I'm weak or something it's just...I know I'm already 20 but the feeling of an orphan child is something you can't escpae from!It follows you wherever you go!
I learned to be strong...but sometimes I have a trouble understanding those mysterious ways of God!
Yeah...MADMalice thiks about those kind of things...I don't even know should I post this public but I don't really care!I'm a human and i FEEL things...
Somehow I feel more vulnerable these days...but it's a new year...new things...new days...new life I could say!

Well I try to put some smile on my really sad face!

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HANABI

She said it was hanabi when I left
Everything was bright and shiny
But then...it all thurned to dark.

ONLY HANABI LASTS FOREVER IN YOUR HEART

Bad news and your crying face
...Nothing is the same anymore.

ONLY HANABI LASTS FOREVER IN YOUR HEART

You didn't say sayonara
Beacuse you didn't know
...You feel sorry now.

ONLY HANABI LASTS FOREVER IN YUR HEART

Now you know...
You learned how to live with that
But it's there to remnid you.

I'M NOT GONE...

ONLY HANABI LASTS FOREVER IN YOUR HEART

Tell her that I love her
Because I know her name is...

Hanabi...

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Sayonara minna >.<